i am starting to realize something... where is she? i want her to teach me to depend on myself totally, only with this skill set, i am able to just leave everything behind here and go to where i want to be. Is it really that i lost how to be a friend or am i too lazy to have a friend or i am not a good friend at all? Many a times, i tried to put away any negative thoughts, feelings that i had and think that everything will be the same. But, it never was... what was there has always been. I was not able to just remove it on my part. The only thing that i am proud of myself is that i can be on my own, although sometimes is really rather lonely, but then i guess it doesn't really make any difference.
我真得已經很習慣我一個人得自由了。i really enjoy the freedom i have without having to worry about anybody's feelings but just all about myself. Maybe this can be seemed like a self-centered person. But, i guess i am tired all the time trying to guess or even concern and care about other's feelings. So, i am both a self-centered and a selfish person.
如果， 我忘了我得夢想也忘了我得終點站，什麼辦？！i guess i lost myself sometime back. There are too many things going through my mind. Which path is better, easier and faster? should i turn right, left or straight? Although, whatever i have thought about in my life has never worked the way it should be, but but .... suddenly, i have stopped learning........ i should get it back......
I really want to get away, can i be granted this simple wish. And i know what to wish for this birthday.. and what should i do this birthday? seems that it bears no meaning......... is just another day....
tears are precious because it touched right into your heart, tears are sincere because it was moment of happiness, tears are never only for saddness and anger but for the happy things that happened in the world.....
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