Happy Birthday to myself!

This year, no uncomfortable celebrations, no unnecessary gatherings. just a simple dinner but i am happier than any other previous 2 birthdays. because, i have plenty of friends that wishes me HAPPY BIRTHDAY! though, i thought half of them would have forgotten. So, a big thanks to everyone that did wish me on my Birthday. i believe nothing can be as precious as sincere wishes! :) No elaborating birthday cake, so i wasn't prepared to make any wish. I only made 1 very very very very very very simple wish. If this simple wish couldn't be granted, then i think Birthday Wishes are FAKE! they are just for shows!

Daniel Vosovic, the Project Runway Season 2 fashion designer. i received a book of his and i am happy about it, because he is one of the talented yet young fashion designer that i adore. He is good looking, but i believe we can only be sisters. hahaa....

Did i mention that recently i finished a book by Paulo - Zahir. There are alot of sentence i like in the book that he used to describe relationships and life. One of which is " Favor Bank". And i think i already open my favor bank already, however there is only deposit inside, i have yet to pay the favor back. I know i might not be able to do payback, because i know she doesn't need any favors, yet i will keep her account forever, without increasing the interest of hers, but increase my bank's interest. Although, deep in my heart, i know that the 2 years i gotten was a bonus, but human are always greedy. the more you get, you will want more again! but i do not want anything, just hope that we could still be in contact somehow. I know her, therefore here i am alone, waiting to pay back my favor, hoping one day she will come and withdraw it. I owe her too much that i do not know how to pay back. Is really interesting how life can be change with 1 incident, and i know that although i do not want to blame it on that incident, but i believe it was really that incident that i change my life and way of thinking and way of treating friends. 

I know i may look independent, but maybe i am not, i know i may love freedom, but maybe i am not. The more things don't happen, the more i think it will not happen no matter how much faith i have in myself. Because i believe i will lost myself in the path i created for myself somehow in the middle of my journey. 

Where are you? Where are you? Just remember that you have an account with me in my favor bank! My bank will be open anytime just for you!