Sometimes a new life marks the end of life.

It just seems to me that I am different from my friends. I think I changed a lot. Years back, my dream was just to meet the right guy and start a happy family. But gradually, I start to lose confidence in this part. There are just too many cases of divorces and betrayal. But of course there are still examples of happy family. Somehow, it doesn’t appeal to me anymore.

I am beginning to stop giving. Giving my love and concern to the dearest people around me. Instead I give all my attention of love and care to myself.

I am beginning to stop being nice, nice to the dearest people around me. Instead I am starting to be mean to people.

I am beginning to stop being easy-going. Instead, I demand what I want.

Given anyone, they bound to go through this changing period. Because you already seen the cruelty of the world. I still have plenty of the cruelty to see.

I am a selfish person that love myself too much.

It really amazing how people click and be friends. I am a libra and I believe in my characteristic. That’s why I came upon the question, why are all my friends so beautiful? Because I am a libra that loves nothing but pretty things. That explains why I only befriend beautiful and handsome people. I am so materialistic man. I just don’t share the same thinking as any of my family members not even my brother. The feeling is so funny like as if I am the weird person in the whole family. They all share the same values in life but not for me. Am I that different?

I really see the dramatic change since 18 years old and I always tell myself to never do things I will regret down the road or things that remind me of how embarrassing I was. But life never ends here and it will still go on until I find the right meaning in life. It will go on until I find a direction in life.

Life is like a car, is all about direction. If you don’t know where you want to go, the car will just halt there and don’t move, even if the car is moving, it is also wandering about without direction. But once, you have a direction in life, you will know your way to it. There may be a shorter route or if you do not fear hardship then you can take the longer route. When you reach the destination, you will be doing things that you are there for. Once, you are done, then you will have another destination in life and keep on moving towards it till you find a place you love and a place called home. No point wasting all the efforts and energy wandering about if you have no direction in life. Its time now to stop and ponder about what’s is your direction in life that will keep you moving non stop.