there have been days that i didnt blog. so many many days. my feelings has been coasting up and down. so many things happen.i have so many things to say. but i don know where i should start. seriously, don know how to start.
i have been keeping up with this female taiwanese artise who recently passed away. whenever, i see reports on her, my tears just run down uncontrollably. i don know where my tears coming from. you can say that i am an emotional lady. maybe i am. but i can't complain that heaven is unfair, cos it was never fair. the day when reality strikes everyone, that's when they come to senses that, everything is unfair in this world.
just like what rainie said "时间可以冲淡我们的伤痛，但是我们不会因为时间而把你忘记。 我们会试着变坚强，但是很难，终觉得这是一场恶作剧。人啊，终是会自己别 骗自己。 what she said is very truth. people just fing it hard to face the reality. we always delude ourselves, consoling ourselves when we know the outcome. we just want to let ourselves feel better. but doesn't this make it worse. when it hurts so badly deep inside your heart. farewell 伟伦 。 you will always be the beautiful angel. i watched the musical show that the friends put up for her, and i cried my heart out. it hurts badly that everyone feel for it. no one wish for this to happen, but disaster just strike anytime. no one dare to face the truth, cos they will hurt so badly. but, reality is right before us, yet no one wants to go near. everything ended, they waved goodbye. in the near future, she will definitely always be remembered!

recently, i feel like i am riding a roller coaster, cos sometime i feel down, sometime i feel high. recently, i am happy because school ended, i am happy becos of my retake,i am happy because chinese new year is coming, i am happy because my idol came to singapore. recently, i am sad because of the tragedy, i am sad because of the truth, i am sad because my fren is unhappy, i am sad because i am disappointed in myself, i am sad because i am angry with myself. isn't my mood like a roller coaster, go up fast,come down fast as well. every now and then, i would just cry easily, i don know why. i just feel like crying. you can say i am a cry-baby, which i have to admit i am. i cry alot. seriously alot. maybe can feel erm 2 cups of water. ha!

out from school. meeting with my fren is minimazing, cos we are both busy with our own things. there are so many times i wish i could just find some time to meet her, but i am really busy completing my working modules. i always wonder whether we will be friends forever? cos, poly brought us together, it might also bring us further away. nevermind what i am thinking. i just hope everything turns out well for her, everytime listen to her problems, i could do nothing but listen. that's so useless. but i still lend my ear. precious ear. :)

chinese new year is coming, the atmosphere seem to be decreasing this year. why is that so? i really love chinese new year, when is makes me feels like everything new is gonna start, the old will go away. just feel fresh and relazing. but this year. hmm, i don know... something seems to be missing.