happy chinese new year to all. chinese new year, it comes and go just like that. people are always excited for the preparations, but too tired to enjoy the process. we are all excited and looking forward for chinese new year, but when chinese new year arrived. it was just " eh, chinese new year . oh, 恭喜發財! 新年快樂! 不就只是這樣子而已嗎? i do love chinese new year, the getting together, having fun. but it seems like this year i had a dull chinese new year. everyone having their own fun, while i was left one side. or is my family's custom and tradition not as fun as others? but, anyway chinese new year will just come and go. when next year, it another routine. maybe now i understand why more and more people tends to not see the importance of chinese new year. cos, it might just be another routine? enough of chinese new year. ha!


erm, did i also wish u guys happy valentine day? ha! Happy Valentine day as well. don't ask me how i spend my valentine day, it will just make me appear as a pathetic soul. ha! just hope that everyone is happy on that day, and hope my dear fren like her present. :)


what am i gona do in the near future? now i am asking myself, whether i am brave enough to do what i want. i have enough of parents wanting me to work as what. am i really brave enough to pursue it? i am testing my abilities. what am i gona do? work my life off doing things that i don't like? i know not many people are able to enjoy doing things they love. many are forced to work due to pressure and for the sake of living. but, do i want this kind of life? funny ah, why can't i be a normal person pursuing a normal life. like many girls, a stable job, marry, look after kids and grow old just like that. is not that i dont want to marry, or i dislike kids, but vice versa, i would love to be able to do the both of them. but then i don want a normal life. i want a life that i love.


am i rattling about life, and more of life. just unable to figure out what i should do. i find excuses saying that after chinese new year then i will think about it, when chinese new year is over, i will find another excuses saying that, when i am back from the trip then i will think about it. aiya, life is miserable. and i am certain i am pretty confused about certain things..why am i always the one who is being controlled? ha! confusing right. yea, thats right. maybe i could make it simpler?
this chinese new year, i saw my relatives kids, gosh, how adorable can they be. simple adorable. simply wish he was mine. ha! he is too adorable and handsome!! argh!! cant wait to go back and see my cousin this coming march, waiting for her. ha! :)

when i am starting to get use to it's absence;
it came by;
when i am adapting to the sudden;
it went off;
it seems that i was thrown into a pool of icy water after a wonderful sun-tanning.