why am i feeling so uncomfortable? something is suppressing inside of me, but i don know what is that. it is making me feeling very terrible.
i don know what i can do. i keep wanting to cry. really have a good cry. it feel so uncomfortable when u cant cry it out. something is blocking me from doing that. weird aren't i?

maybe i kept too many things inside, then i keep on thinking and thinking. thinking and thinking.then think too much until i want to burst out! i want to scream! i want to yell! i want to cry out loud!

anyway, yesterday i was watching tv, then i saw this new programme showed! is a variety show that helps guys to propose to their girlfriends. the methods they used, the words they said made my goosebumps popping out. is so mushy, but for them it isn't. isn't it quite cool, u have almost the whole of singapore witnessing the process of ur proposal and witness the moment of happiness. guys can be pretty attentive as well. but somehow to me, i don know why i find all guys are always so cool! weird.

i have no idea which way i am heading to.
i have no idea whether i sank inside the sea.
i have no idea whether i am alive.
will i be the survivor?