i am bored,tired both mentally and physically...things jus seem that it isnt going well.....though,i am left with exactly 13 more days to end my internship, but it seems never ending.....
so when is this going to end, though the people here are very nice, but then i am very tired already.. jus feel like i wanna get out of here...
the world is revolving around the sparkling hips of FASHION --> my new nick...now everywhere, people pay attention to fashion..right?
the sense of fashion, everyone has a different view in each fashion expects.. don ever think i am trying to talk big here, saying fashion blah blah blah...i didnt know i love fashion so much...i hope i can do something regarding fashion, i hope i can work something out of this..will anyone support me? i need support, cos i have been receiving negative comments about working in this industry. so i need lots of support, or jus drop me some positive comments about fashion industry. i know it is going to be difficult. but tell me, whos dream arent difficult to realise? i don mind the hardship but in the end will i be able to make it? will i be able to stand in the fashion industry. this is a big question. please don ever think i am influence by project runway, though i love that show, but i am not influence by the show in wanting to work in fashion industry..
fashion represent different terms in each individual. for me, i perfer comfty yet interesting attractively. color plays a big part in a shirt. not only color, the cloth and texture also plays a big role..there are so many to learn in fashion...

i always watch TV dramas, they quoted "not everything money can buy" but trust me, money can buy qualifications. if i've the money, i would have study overseas...i could have study overseas and learn more thing and expose more and know more people and not stuck here. it isnt that here is not good, but is always better to go outside the world to see..money can buy all that, without money, even travelling will be difficult... though money cant buy feelings, but it can help me get better qualifications!!

hmm, i am not feeling well and am feeling very sleepy...i don know what happening to me..i wanna shut myself up alone...i wanna be alone...when i am supposed to sleep at night, i have no idea why i jus couldnt fall asleep, when i am not allowed to sleep while i was workin, i keep dozing off....i also don know whats wrong with me...i am so confused over myself...seriously confused...
does anyone else feels the same as me? confused about themsevels?
confused about thigns they do, things they like, things that gets in their way, things that is never ending... many many things....
maybe a trip back, i will be more refreshin and start everything anew...
i put down what i am supposed to put down, no longer holding on,
maybe because i let go of my hand, then i felt that i am too tired all long. trying to be someone i am not.... so a break for me is the most suitable..

i have been thinking, will there be a day that i will go travelling myself? exploring the city mmyself? i don mind travelling myself in hongkong, actually i love hongkong, esp the language that was spoken there, i understand what they say, but i jus cant speak as fluently as they could. so sad... no one to practicse cantonese with me..
haven to pretend that i am a hongkie when i cant speak fluent cantonese..haha...
cool, you guys know why i keep blabbering non-stop? cos i have too much free time, i wanna write alot of philosophy....
let talk topic by topic....

i wanna talk bout project runway,
the final 3, 1) Daniel V 2) chloe Dao 3)Santino Rice....
i like chloe's collection as much as i like daniel's v collection...they are both great designers, and daniel v have achieved so much at such a young age, i admired him, and he is both talented and handsome. needless to say, i find him hot.... but then........
everytime i see them draw their design,shopping for clothes, executing their design, sewing on their own.. if i am as capable as them, i would feel a sense of satisfaction. being able to made your own design out from your own bare hands, isnt this achievements statisfying!!
i admire and envy their smart brains and their determination and jealous of their opporunity.. i wish i have the chance they have, but it will be hard for me even to step out of singapore to study...

i was listenin to radio one night, and i heard the Dj mention this phrase "the thing that is constant is changing" i couldnt get what it means immediately after hearing the sentence, i keep repeating the phase in my head and try to figure out what it means.
the thing that is constant is changing.
which mean changing is normal in life,it is the thing that keep on happening in our life.
am i right?pretty true, changing keeps on happening..i find the change in my friends, i find the change in myself,changing can be so scary that you wont expect it to be...

wow, i bet i have been ranting on and on for a long time already, but it jus like 3.45pm
but i still wanna keep writing, thats the only thing that i can do now,
the entire net, i have surfed like almost everythign i wanna surf, search almost everything i wanna search, see almost everythin that i wanna see...
i am so tired of website ready....

My current NEW Obession ---> Bosco Wong
he is my fav hottie now!! with Myolie Wu....they make a great pair...
i begining to love him more and more, he is so man, so gentleman,so funny,so cute and so playful. when you need a man, he is a man, when u need a clown to cheer u up, he can be one, when u need some fun, he can be very fun to be with... though i don know him, but he give me this kind of feeling...what an ideal boyfriend, with character, ambition, height and build. he is the perfect man yet again!
he can be both a man and a guy... i like him!!! isnt him jus the perfect guy....woo..hope i can meet him if i am in hongkong! praying hard.... hahaha!!
i never change my idols, jus that my idols keep increasing,start from male first
daniel chan --> takuya kimura --> Mike he jun xiang --> Raymond lam --> lee dong gun --> bosco wong !!! they are all handsome guys okie!!
female artise
mandy moore --> hilary duff --> rainie yang --> myolie wu
hahhahahahaha....a childish side of me...damm! hahah...
okie...i am trying to write until my clock here strike 4pm...when it strike 4pm, i am left with 2 hours...2 long hours,though i hope i can go home and rest, but i have to be out..i am tired! mentally and physically tired...
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YEAH...finaly 4pm le!!!
haiz..okok..i shall stop here..