in different stage,people tend to have different perspective and views in life..they change their thinking and change their behaviour on certain things..

in the end, i thought i had the determination not to carry on my passion,but i broke the determination. i went back training today, though i know there shouldnt be excuses like i am tired..but i really am...dozing off at every opporunity i have, like in the train...dozing off while doing my work...really beat..but i made my decision and went back training... i thought i would be fun if i bring laughters back or maybe to liven up the atmosphere, but not everyone thinks that way...right..i didnt want to feel the gap in between but in the end i brought this on myself...stupid arent i..

why cant i be fun during trainin as well as serious? why must we be real serious and make everyone so bored and sad during training...i am not sayin i am right..jus thinking that people have different way of doing and handling things..maybe i prefer to have fun while doing things i like..

i did alot of thinking just now...i guess it was my fault for pulling out...but i guess i just have to take what i deserve...right..

anyway,saw brandon jus now!! haha..so long never see him... :) hope bran and victor doing fine..

i chose to move away, thats what i deserve..having missin out on a trip is so much different....going back there arent about the team anymore, is about the passion i have for the sports..

is nice seeing everyone happy as they are now...i guess i am taking parting too easily now...


i keep telling myself, maggie and lulu is what i got!! yeah...miss them lots..

anyway, today's training i am happy with my performance...isnt prefect..but pretty okie...
i realise self-satisfaction feels great too....


the journey to school today was wahz..miss school badly...first was seconday, now poly..i seriously understand the meaning of "dont speak too fast, you will never know" ya..i always speak too fast..always sayin i hate poly life whatever and whatever....now i haven even graduate and i am already missing it...reality is not good...1 more year to decide my fate.....


i want the freedom to do what i want, to achieve what i want to...and most importantly to succeed in whatever i do!! oh yeah...

meeting dear lulu tml... hehe...gona talk heart to heart... :( haha...