story continued......

**Story continued**

nevertheless..without fairytale romance....she still have to carry on with her life...cos the world wont stop for her...nomatter what life still have to carry on..of cos..she wont be so stupid to be depressed over this stuffs...
sometimes small little things can make her happy..simple things can make her laugh..jus tell her a joke...be it funnny or not funny...she will laugh..what trigger her laughter?? maybe the sincerity of someone willin to tell her a joke? or maybe the sincerity that someone wanna to make her laugh? all this could be possible..cos she understand how it feels if someone were to tell a joke and it couldnt make the person laugh...it willmake the person who is tellin the joke feel that is waste of time..
she definitely enjoyed the company of her friends...fromprimary school to secondary school to poly...she could remember alot of friends and were glad that she was always among the famous few..but all this doesnt last...in primary sch,she have a bunch of good girlfriends and some guy friends...but lost contact...in secondary sch, she initally sticked with her primary sch fren but due to some problems split...joined two friends..however didnt last...then she joined a group of innocent,funn-loving,hardowrkin girls..she nejoyed being with them and love their accompanionship..but however deep ion her heart, she feels that she and them doesnt belong to the same world..she is so far far way behind them...she doesnt feel absolute comfortable with them,she feels a distant with them, cos they move very fast..she couldnt catch up...when with them,she always afraid to say the wrong things..and she doesnt express herself,doesnt tell them about her problems and feelings..soon,she pull herself out from them after everyone left secondary school...but thru out her secondary sch life...she always have a bunch of cool,sporty girls around her..being her fren..support her...play netball together,cry together,work hard together,run together,punish together...went thru alot huuh...
then in her last phrase of her sec sch life...should she say that heavedn is playin a joke on her? hahah..funny...haiz...it seems that she got no close friends to stick with...but lucky for her buddy by her side...talkin to her and study with her...stay in class every recess...and in this last phrase she got to know some frens better..but it only lasted till the end of sec sch..and each went different path again..she is someone that doesnt take actions but sit there waitin for ppl knockin on the door...she wont contact frens ..always waitin for friends to contact her...thats why she keeps losin friends..in her memory,she remember havin alot fo friends surroundin her always..but now..when she think back,she barely think of anyone that she could ask out...no one..pathetic..but there are still 4 friends she has in seconday sch...since sec 1 same class till sec 2...but funny thing is, also no idea how come they could still be close till now...yar...fuunny..nothin could explain it...but she is happy now..for havin two dearest polymates that share almost everythin in her poly life..she always say,"without them she cant imagine what her life in poly gona be like" they always joke and joke andjoke..joke uuntil laugh till stomach pain..they share the same dreams,they support each other,they cared for each other, they uunderstand each other...they feel comfortabl ewith each other...they know each othe rin and out..hahha..cool huh...she seriously hope that this is the friendship that is goin to last forever for her..cos they are important..and there is also this gang of ppl that came by in her life, which enriched and brighten her life...went thru alot of happy moments and exciting moments...but it has all gone...guess slowly she has learned to accept it..cos partin is startin to become part of her life..
is fate who bring friends together...is destiny that allows them to be friends...she loved every of her friends...

**story to be contniued....**

oh ya..i change the layout of the blog again.i hope it isnt bad..or becomin worse..cos is like so messy...hmm..will try to improve it ....think of more ideas... :)