is there such fantasy??

i really wanna know whether there is such fantasy romance in reality...cos it is getttin so fantasy and fairytale...it is almost the dream romance every girl is goin for...it is almost the dream guy every girl is yearnin for...but is it the reality that every girl have to face...is gettin more and more unbelievable...maybe is jus drama..maybe is jus a story..maybe is jus a comic...but how i wish there is real life...

every relationship has its own obstacles to overcome...has its own problem to solve...i guess..now i am getttin more and more confused by the drama...i think i am that sort of person that be what people think i should be..and i arent the person i want myself to be..i am goin against my will but goin by people's will.... people love people to be kind...so i have to be kind..people wants people to be generous..so i have to be generous...am i this kind of person..even me myself cant stand myself...gettin more and more confuse...time and time, again and again i ask myself...what kind of person am i? true from the heart? or someone fake?

i don give people good first impression..i guess if i said somethin wrong i wouldnt have notice too...and it takes me a long time to trust that person..whether he/she is trustworthy...it takes me sometime to open up and really talk to a stranger...i can be total loner if i want to...i can talk non stop if i want to...i don know..do i have double character? i always envy how she is...how good she looks...things she own..friends around her..people circlin her...whether i see this kind of girl..my confidencec drop way way down...i am jus too bad,...okie..enough...
suddenly, somethin shot my mind...

TML RESULTS OUT!! gosh..i seriously don wanna fail..i wanna go to sems 2 with CHER AND JIAYI....pray hard...
all the best...pls pls let us go together...