I dont deserve it....

i dont deserve it??... why the title?? cos recently i met up with my long lost girlfriends...my secondary school friends...we were very close during the sec 4 period...the times are fabulous...i haven been meeting them due to alot of reasons...yupz..then i met them on sun...to have a meal and catch up on those we missed out..definitely i am the one who missed out alot alot...they have moved so far ahead and i am still stuck in this small little corner of mine own...hui went overseas,xing in nus,dia in sim,chu goin aust,cheryl doin well...everyone seems so far far away...i wished to be like them...study oversea or even continue studyin after i had my diploma...but for my case it didnt seems to be the case...i don know what will happen a year later...but time passed very fast..but of cos i am happy to see them again...each of them very happy with their own life now...but it seems i am the only one nothin interesting.. they ask me to update them..but there is seriously nothin in my life worth to be updated and there is absolutely nothin that i could updfate them about...so i speak lesser than usual..i also emphasie the feelin of comfortable when u are around either your friends or your loved ones...although it isnt totally uncomfortable, there seems to be alittle akwardness there...and what they made me feel bad is when i decided to go home when is late..they said" for u, we can forked out money for your cab fare later" i am thinkin....I AM NOT WORTH THAT..cos i M.I.A myself for very long..feelin bad inside...haiz..hahahhah funny ah..hmm..i guess things are gettin interesting..and school is startin soon...quite excited to go back to go and have fun with cher and jiayi..missd out the fun i had with them...and goin school is definitely very interesting...Yeah!!