poly is different..i only went thru all the pains and laughter and happiness with my 2 best buddies..Cher and Jiayi..we go thru all the shits together..
mention about goin thru all the shits..make me boil...

that monday we suppose to have our PTN lunch..at first we discuss eatin pizza....then suddenly on that day itself teacher told us it was MAC!! can u imagine havin MAC as OTN lunch..jiayi they all went Thai Express...gosh..is so much different...
okie then nvm,....all my classmates..ALL!!! was also like me grumblin about it...and moreover our PTN is not there...so what kind of PTN lunch is that...
everyone is unhappy with the decision..alright..maybe i was the one who over-reacted..but what i said..everyone agree..EVERYONE AGREED!!
then went for class.,happen to be my PTN lesson..then i went in with a black face ready to confront the teacher whey she isnt there with us...but the moment i went in, teacher said" chunpei,i heard u are unhappy with the decision" then i repiled" huh, i thought the whole class?" then she said"no lahz...is u only.." then u come to me and say" i know u only like HIGH-CLASS stuffs or food"

WHAT THE F**K!!! HIGH CLASS!! is not about high class not high class...eatin MAc is fine ready...but we are eatin it so pathetic...havin it at those benches for studyhin..18 ppl cramp at 1 1/2 table...like we are beggin for some food...and i am damm angry bout why is it me only...in the first place is the WHOLE CALSS not happy..but no one wants to stand up and agree... makin me like the ONLY ONE not happy..WHAT THE HELL!! teacher not there everyone showed those uunhappy pathetic poor thing face..in front of teacher all like jus joke with teacher..what hyprocrite..and i really wanna know who is the damm culprit who told teacher i was so damm uunhappy!!! damm it...nearly want to cry out ready...idiot..WHY IS IT ONLY ME?? i know it sounds kinda of rebillious..but come on..it suppose to be PTN lunch and she isnt present but she explain why...but why no one in the calss said that they are unhappy as well...why is it me only ? and when i was grumblin then everyone agree...idiot...
slowly startin to be okie and like my class abit..this kind of stupid thing happen!!! guess i am jus bad luck havin 2B/23 ppl as my classmates..guess they feel unlunncky as well....don like my class.seriously don like...haiz...chunpei one and a half year to go...cher and jiayi make me happy k? hehhe..





Woo...listening to Jay Chou - Yi Lu Xiang Bei..Damm nice..hahhaha..Jay chou is so charming!!! gosh...hahahah...alright..alright..shall not talk bout handsome guys anymore....hahha...

hmmm, have been damm hyper this recent days with jiayi and cher...but i guess happy times wont last..i am afraid..actually i am paranoid now...cos when i am too happy..i realise things doesnt last....i am really afraid now..i want to be happy..but i dare not be too happy cos i am afraid i will be too sad later on...like with my gang..we were havin so much fun last year..but guess happy times doesnt last....we were so separated now...although i never really make any effort in meetin them up...but i also don like the feelin of thre are so many things i don know bou them..but guess someitmes jus have to let the happy things go ya..i don know should i say i am happy with my life now..or feels somethin is missin??i don know...
i have been workin recently, after sch i go work...why?
the reason is simple...if i don work, i will be free...i will have more things to think about unnecessary stuffs which i don want it to happen...and it is impossible to meet up with yen wei almost eveyday..and goin down club now seems so meaningless...i don know why..jus feel so...guess the time that i back off is reachin soon..then everyday after sch, jiayi will go home..cher will meet her friends...then if i go home do what? watch tv..suddenly i lost interest in tv programmes...lock in myy room and keep thinkin of stupid things? NO!! i don want the above things to happen...although i can be super super tired from work, but at least it keeps my time occupired for the time being..haiz...but i am glad now that i am always happy with cher and jiayi..i really seriously hope we will stay liek this for long..seriously..*prayin hard*

and for mj...guesss, it always true that it is hard to juggle both friendship and relationshop isnt it? i mean i am not blamin anyone...is just that we did say if really ouyr gang no more, at least still have the three of us...me yenwei and mj...but guess time doesnt allow us to have the chance to meet up...everyone is busy with different things..haiz...yupz...find it kinda of sad..but there is nothin much i can do....


hmm..but suddenly is all my sec sch friends comin back? ARE U GUYS COMIN BACK?? hahha...cos recently i met up with janice...soon to meet up with sheena and ruzaini right? and lucky i am still close to luo they all...they are all myy sec sch frens left so i will treasure them!!! :) cos to me Sec sch is an important period that i have walked passed...i shed most of my tears there, i let out most of my laughters there, i walked thru my teenage life there, i grew up there, i play my first netball there, i seriously first time fall in love also there, when i first move house it was also durin sec sch,when i first started like soccer was also sec sch, when i learn how to cook also in sec sch, when i learn how to saw wood, and polish arylic also in sec sch,everythin new things i learn is in sec sch, receive any awards also in sec sch,sing on stage as a competition also in sec sch, wearin enthic clothes also in sec sch....gosh..i guess give me one night i also wont be able to name all the first things i don in sec sch....
cos sec sch period really accompany me pass thru alot...is not jus short 4 years like any other clever ppl does...but is 5 years for me..1 year extra....so our bond is strong than any other year right? i miss janice sittin beside me...i miss ruzaini's jokes..and him being a Mrs Wee's Pet....hahhaha....i miss Mr Gan....i Miss my first floor class room!!! and i miss my SEC 4 class..the least students in the class...all take history...i was sittin beside salimi that time..hahha..haiz...yupz...

how i miss my sec sch times..

jus a fast bloggin..cos very late..and i wanna sleep soon...met up with my sec sch fren today..Janice!!! hahaa...so long we never meet till today then we met up.... she say i look skinner than when i was in sec 5! but wait...i seriously think i look skinner when i was in sec 5 rather than now..now i think i fat ready...okie..is a comment...
but i feel sad when she says that i arent that radiant and jovial and cheerful anymore.. she says last time i always gave her those cheerful,bright,sunshine those happy feelings..and she said last time i used to laugh and smile alot..i did realise so as well.. last time everyday i was so lookin forward to go to sch and everyday when i reach sch , i will really just greet everyone with my smile...is not that i am so friendly..but i usually the one that look most freshen in the early mornin when everyone will look tired..i will be the one smilin when everyone is yawnin...i will be the talkative one when everyone is jus tired to even talk..but now...not only she sense the change in me..but i do sense the change in myself... iarent that happy anymore,i arent that cheerful anymore...all the troblues are written on my face..why? what happen to me? i don want to be like this..i wany my sec 5 me back!! haiz..miss myself back then..now i understand whats the meanin when everyone says that i am those happy-go -lucky girl..yar...at that pooint of time i really am..but not...i am sad-go-berserk girl...hahahha...
but i still know how to joke..
i also feels that when i am in a conversation with someone i tend to not pay much attention and jus day dream away..haiz...and now i seems more liek the quiet and introvert one towards janice..she is so much open now..cos in sec sch she supoer quiet and shy...if u don t talk to her...she wont talk...she is really very quiet..but now she changed for the better..became more confident of herself and dare to speak up..guess i am alway sthe one who change for the worse..i don wan..how then can i get back to teh me in sec 5?? i miss myself back then...
when the times i always reach sch at the main gate walkin in,waitin to greet my dear classmates and friends and teachers..smilin..not yawnin...keep flashin back...ahiz...

okok..jus miss myself back then...keep thinkin back the old stuffs...hmm..guess all my old frens comin back..hahahah..
alright have been rushin for assignment this whole week..goin to sleep now..wakin up early tml...tired tired..... :(

hey..here to blog again..it has been quite some time since i blog huh...basically lost the interest to blog, to write...cos in my life there is always nothin for me to remmeber deeply...everydays events happen consistently..nothing changes that much..of cos for sch side..i don wish for much to happen..cos i love jiayi and cher..the retarded they are..teh more fun we have..hahaha...have always been retarted recently..anyway suddenly have many assignments due..gosh..by this week./..but yesterdat went shoppin damm shiok..hahha...bought quite some tops and my fav skirt...hahhahha...shiok....

erm...for my gang side nothin changes much..less meetin..less gatherin..less crappin..less fun..everythin less...lesser and lesser...how? didnt want things to become like that...haiz..i don know what to do..

hmm...many things i dont really wanna say cos my blog is quite public..hmm..but can u imagine tellin the person that u don like him/her? i guess the feelin is relieve..hmm...i know it sounds damm cruel...WHAT IF IT HAPPENS TO ME? could i be able to take it?? i don know...i guess i can face that person bravely and more naturally rather than decidin whether to ignore or to respones...guess i am a bad person...yar...

and recently we have the national league that we played... hmm..nowadays i hardly played the full match..only one or two quarther...thats why i told myself...i could only earn myself one or two quarthers...so i must perform well and go all the way...put in my best efforts...so for some matches..although i played one quarther only..i felt satisfied cos i played my best...hehehhe...
oh ya....on that 15th june...suppose to be our meetin...f4's meetin..ahhaha...cool huh..that day...bao came to fetch me and yen wei..heheheh..thanks..gosh...he is drivini...hahhaha...hmm...safe and smooth...hahhaha..no wonder he passed so well!!!yar...lookin forward to meet them soon..

sometimes i think i am a two-faced person? i don know how to describe why i feel this way..but sometimes i do feel it...i don know why...haiz...cos i don konw who i am??

wooo..lah lah...hahha..is so nice be back in school!!!
Cher....Jiayi!!! You guys are always the best of the best...really love u guys alot...hahhha...we have been talkin cock and jokin non-stop....and i love it that way...love how we spend our time together...but sorry cher...we wanted to be with u in music..but in the end we change our path..hahhaha...but we are still crazy!! Yippe!! sch has always been fun with u guys...make me laugh again when the whole holiday i haven been really laughin like,laugh until stomache,until cannot take it...really man!! hahha..thanks huh..Eh..but i contribute quite alot right? hahhaha...
okok..my goldfish eyes,my hilarious laughter,my stupid expression...okok somemore what?? hahahha....okie...love u all...

hmm....2nd week of sch...hmm...many things happen,things cock up, many many things...sheena always mention this phrase " tables turned,people changed" i never once doubt it or thinks that it will never happen...cos it always happen on me...ya..on me...tables turned...turned 360 degree that i cant turn it back..i am sad about it..cher is sad for me...but i cant turn the tables back..really cant...don know why tables turned...hahha...is it that we are too proud bout what we have?maybe we are too proud right? serves us right, right...haiz...don wanna things to turn out this way...but no choice...things jus turn out this way...i cant change right?
cher told me before that "dont let a coin decide my fate" cos i always have been..hahha....
but i now vic is always tryin to meet up...thats why i don wanna disappointed him ...he is a fren to treasure...hehe...right SIR? hehe...
thanks.... :)

weeeloo....back to bloggin..have been a week i haven blog right..cos now jiayi and cher havin lessons again..and i am again in the lab playin games and bloggin..hahhaha...i playin this drum game..damm cool...got this song damm nice..MY FIRST KISS...takuya sang this song in jap version before..damm cool..but it seems like my hands are so retarded..haahah...

then last friday went sun tannin with mary..at some remoted pool..heheh..so cool...we talked alot as welll...ya man..hehe..then after that went to meet vic...wahz...then alot of other ppl came along as well...but after that me,vic,bran and kenny went to eat at far east...i like that time...very good..we talk alot and crap alot..ya man..heheeh..then went back to meet them..then after that my brother join me...hahha...cool huh...is always nice hangin out with my gang...they are fun...thanks...heheh....

cher ..our video not with u..then XTD how? hahhahhaa....oh ya..went to kyeo's blog...hmm..he seems kinda of low...chill k... yeo...in life there is always this period of time when u are down and low...but it will be over soon..jus take this as an experience to be patient and bear with it....is not the whole world against u...is jus that somehow everythin happen at the same time...cool k..ehhehee....see ya soon...

*sobbin*...alone again..hahaha..havin two hours break now...then jiayi and cher is havin lesson...thats the bad things bout different class...hehehe..but jus now in lecture..i really laugh like no one business...hhaaha..i also don know..jus cant stop laughin..but now i am here alone stonnin and saddin..hahha

alright... i was chattin with meijie on the phone..hahha..hmm..talk abuot alot of things...was thinkin and thinkin...i really treasure and love them...i mean we had so so so much fun together..celebrated mj's.vic's,bran's and kenny's birthday together...so is small dan next...what will it be? no more group celebration...i think now they might have the thinkin that we are leavin the group...OF COS i don want .....but somehow things change...right? yen wei seems unbothered by it...mj got ah hua but is stil bothered by it....i am alone...missin them in my poly life, make my poly life seems missin of somethings...cos they are so crazily fun..but somethin is wrong..am i the one havin the problems? maybe....
how come whenever it comes to friendship i always fail in buildin a good one? hmm...jus hope the past come back again..like the way we were last time..had so much fun...prayin hard...

isnt to guys, they see woman as selfish creatures? hmm...ya..maybe woman are...but doesnt it reflect how important woman treat this particular friendship or relationship? i don wish to be seen as selfish creature..tryin to be generous...but sometimes not all things can be generous right? yar...i feel it this way...

Will year 2 poly life still be fun for me??
i hope it will,
cos this is what keeps me goin on....

:)