hey hey..caramel is up again to blog..hahha..hmm....she guessed things arent going too well for her friends and hope that all her friends is well and good and happy and healthy..yupz...truthfully, love isnt the big thing in the world..isnt the only thing in the world..why are we always wishin for it and yearnin for it..why? i don understand..there are so many other things rather than love isnt it? but why human consistently keepin goin for lovin..keep fallin in love....makin themselves miserable..cos not all have a happy endin..and not all will have a fairytale ending...maybe is relly because we watch too much fairytale that allow to imagine and think...the more we think the more we want it...isnt it so? so why make love the BIG thing when is actually very small... not everyone are in love..but there are always alot of other things that we can do rather than love...alot of other things more..right? thats what i thought so...is also some drama show makes me realise so..we should treasure the time we are given to experience and explore....we should cherish the friends granted to us..cos we are destiny to be friends...and fated to be friends..so we should cherish each other more....we should also make full use of every seconds and every minutes given to us.we should? dont u think so...we should do somethin we love and do somethin we want to ....i know is always easy for me to SAY so...but doin wise..for some reasons it is difficult...we might not have the fianicial status to do those thing we want to do..like me...i want to travel to rome and barcelona...but when can i find those money..where? nowhere until i work my ass off after i graduate....hahhaha....i love the place there...really want to go there...heheh...
sometimes i think memories can be hurtful....if it isnt a perfect and happy ending then the memories will bring back more hurtful and misery...cos when ppl tend to think back to those past....then will feel sad instead of lovin the memory...those memories are unhappy and they wish to forget but memories are easrable in our mind..they cant be erase jus with a click..if i were given this magic eraser i would erase the memories startin from the time when we finish O level...yar..i want to erase that phrase..and never remeber...and if i were given a magic pen to write a memory i would chose to amend those memories starting from the time that i am in hongkong...yupz..make it a more happy and memorable memory for the five of us...but who will grant me with those magic eraser and pen? no one...cos this will never happen..is all imgainary...hahha..i am stupid arent i?
somehow,i gain somethin and i learn somethin from somethin....yupz... :)
but learn to live happily and be happy..what the use of being sad? it will only add on to your misery and make u a worse person...

hmm...guess i am havin a flu again..argh..i hate flu...hahhah....i am frustrated cos i cant seems to find a top to go with my skirt...argh..how? thats the skirt i am wearin on my first day of CNY..is like i went twice and i combed the whole area of orchard and even bugis but i cant find anythin...absolutely nothin...nvm..nvm...i will continue findin..haiz..then yesterday i was workin, and to my surprise...ruzaini popped by...hahha..never change...forever the crappiness and joker...a good friend...yupz...but somethin change...he dropped by with his frens...then i thought he was like bluffin me that he was ............. so i thought he was jus playin a prank ah...so i don bother...who knows i really saw him ......... IDOIT him...WHY?? don understand..WHY Ruzaini? why the start? is STRESS ur reason as well? he always like to joke with me....so before i go...he somehow mention ahmad....then he say somethin like" if somehow somethin...maybe ahmad wont smoke" then i say " oh...then IF i never walked away so u and sheena wont smoke as well izzit" then i cant remember what he say..then i walked off....then i actually think about it on my way back...why would i say so? i dont have such big influence to the both of them...what if i never walked away and they still smoke today? it means i am nothin....actually, when i was sittin there talkin to ruzaini, i was thinkin if i really never walked away will both of them smoke? thats quite a large percent in me say NO...i don know...it seems like i am the starter of everythin which i dont wish it to happen...is really...WHY THE START? when in the first place u guys can resist it? why the start in the end? i got no idea...somehow he trigger my memories back in sec sch again..okie..never to deny..my sec 5 memories are the best...alot of things happen..really...and so happen that yesterday i took 27 back home..supposed to be readin my book on my way home but i decided not to..cos i want to go thru all the memories once again...my ears are quiet..when last time ruzaini will go talkin non-stop on the journey back home..hahaha...i feel lonely..when last time ruzaini,sheena and ahmad will be at the bus stop together...yupz..those were the past..and happy memories..really crazy memories too...hahha..those were teh days i saw alot of things..and nearly got into seein a real fight..and miss out some fun butt always havin fun..hahhha..argh..stupid ruzaini make me think back...hahhaha..but this will always be in myy mind..cos i have to move on..and everyone moved on...yupz..sometime it feels good takin the old memories out and see thru it again...it feels good..but one must know when to stop and come bacck to reality...hahha..yar..but is good seein him though..."OI ruzaini, GREW muscular.... ehem....show me ur stomach and make me laugh.." hahhahahaaha.....drop by often yar..hahhaha....
and yesterday had a day out with F4...but drop by Mj shop first..then went to find them..hahah.okie...all havin new hairstyles...not bad ah..really not bad..BAO still the best lahz..so brave for that color..but the color will fade..and luo's hair also not bad...yeo also...but should color more..hahahaha....then vin poor thin can only cut hair but not color..but don worry..vin..i also never color..i accompany u lahz..hahahhaha...great day...eventful day...yeah....

The endin decide what kind of memory will be deeply etched in your mind,
You cant erase it,
You cant forget it,
You jus have to get over it and move on.
Take out those happy memories once awhile to see thru it again.
Cos thats what memories are for.

Lazy sleepy and rushin for assignment Chunpei-sigin off...