haiz..

Hey,i change my blogskin but the words are remain unseen cos the background is orange..anyway,why am i doin here so late...cos i have to finish my school assignments...DAMM IT!!sian sia...haiz..then jus now had a shity work day..DAMM IT!!haiz..ppl come non-stop....i talk non-stop..not enuff staffs..only me,jeremy,khairi and liza...what sia..so little staffs and so many ppl..don understand why there are so many ppl ...so tired sia...stand so long talk so long...i didnt even get any rest...headache...dizzy..anyway,hope to get sick also...then i think i did mention about yesterday stuffs...haiz..see how blur i am..only yesterday things and i cant remember...the more i know what LIFE is..the more i find it is harder for me to survive..you wont know who is true to you and who is backstabbin u at ur back...ppl are dangerous creature...now,i really find it hard to believe ppl whom i jus get to know...really difficult...i don know why..but i have alot of things in my mind that i need to get it sort out...too many things...once i thought i knew what life is..but then again i was wronged...see...why do i keep makin wrong judgement bout ppl and about myself? anyway,if i cannot make the right judgement for myself what right have i to make the correct judgement about others...and school stuffs are botherin me..work stuffs are botherin me..some stupid sch frens are botherin...relation in life are botherin..why cant i have a simple life? last time, i was this HAPPY-GO-LUCKY girl...why cant i be that now? why is it that i find it so difficult to communicate to ppl now? then are so many questions in my head that i have no answer...i am gettin scared of ppl now..."A broken trust is hard to heal,a broken heart is hard to recover"why the more i discover things the more life gets worse...i dont know who i am but i really want to know who i am...WHO AM I??Have i becomin worse and bad? cos i have been wantin to start fight with my sch girls and have been talkin behind ppl's back??how can i make my life back to normal..the SEC 5B - C.P..ah pei?? how can i? how do i?and school isnt gettin better...tons and tons of work and have no idea what it is about..i really scared that i will drop-out...really afraid about that..cos i got no discipline to do thigns myself...i don know...really alot of things in my mind...can i erase some memories??haiz..i have learned some lessons in somethin ..but the more i learn the higher the level gets...haiz...don know ah..so tired..goin to sleep soon..somemore tml school start at nine..and after that got trainin and is PHYSICAL!!!!want to train stamina and get ready for trials for IVP!...i am takin it easy..if i don get it..then lets jus be it...haiz..okok..wanna sleep...but gona post another one cos i want to intro this song...*have u ever-beandy*