haiz what is goin wrong with me?

i really don know what is goin wrong with me?...thought i could start a good week this week cos this will be the 2nd week of school and everyone should have settle down and be more fun..but monday for me was a bad start that start off the bad week for me...have this audio lesson on monday which i don quite understand and we are required to make and edit a music that last for a min..maybe to ppl a minute is short..but now for me a mintue is so damm long...then meet up with ena,ruzaini and the rest....but i still don know whats botherin me..feelin somethin heavy in my heart but i jus cant explain what it is...anyway,havin the java programmin lesson now..sometimes i wonder will i fail this sem that i will be retained..cos maths is difficult...java programminm is difficult...edit audio is difficult..edit viedo is difficult..storyboardin is diffcults..cos i am not as creative as ena..and have not many ideas like ruzaini does...sometimes i feel that i am not suitable for this course...haha...but take a step and see ah...haiz..but today java one..was okie..i create my name PEI with java and not PAINT!!!and today i think i piss kak elly off..cos i call in to change my schedule for sat to morning..then she told me that too many staffs in the morning..then i say got something in the night ah..then she say "i told u u workin afternooon then u still make plans" then i say ah...i did msg u and tell u that i want either fri or sat midnight or sat and sun morning..but when i saw afternoon i thoyught got no plans then i anything ah...but got plans rigght..now i am confused don know whether i mornin or afternoon cos she never really give me a definite answer....so how now? i also not sure..haiz...then i think this all feel days emo gettin over me...hahaha....also don know why...waken up from a dream yet another jus came.....i don know lahz..maths is so difficult that i feel like crying...haiz..don know lahz..then somemore today i woke up late again..got lesson at 9 but wake up at 8.20..then thouught of skippin lecture..but maths ah..cannoot..so decided to take cab..and again is cost me more than last time..$18!!!$18!!i can buy a cd!!okie..stop here...