sometimes i think i changed alot.

i am not sure why it occurred to me to read my past post and i was amazed how much i changed within a year. the change was definitely drastic, the change was definitely a good thing for me, the change was indirectly caused....... in the past, i have been trying to please every single person that steps into my life. it was in me, to treat everybody nicely. my mentality was that, if i am nice to you, you will be nice to me too. but i gave up on this thoughts. i feel that i am obliged to be nice to you, so vice versa, you should be nice to me. but people out there don't carry the same thoughts that i do. So, why am i torturing myself, having high hopes on human beings and thus knowing i am extremely wrong! people always say " change is good, change is always for the better!" and i love changing now. though a year passed rapidly, i changed alot too! within a year, i learnt alot from this wise dictionary. i am grateful that the wise dictionary came across my path and show me the ropes up, exploring my own identity!

for the recent times, i've received comments like i am a person of character. true, i become a person with more of my own character compared to who i was in the past. just that, i become more character but less happy. i carry more sad faces in me, plus the fact that i know that i have yet to achieve what i want in life, therefore there is nothing for me to be happy about in life. i don't quite like rubbish talk nowadays. teach me something and i will be more willing to share so much with you. sharing thoughts, sharing knowledge is a good thing that i must have along my path in growing up. previous year, i was still so much surrounded by friendship, maintaining important friendship. but however, i have come to realise. there is this friendship that i couldn't maintain. it is always one hand clapping friendship. i gave up on friendship. i only maintain 1 friendship that i know we both tried very hard to keep it going! i gave up on my friends, naturally they will give me up. but i guess it upsets me that the effort wasn't appreciated. i think i fear to accept the fact that whatever i done was never being appreciated, that's why i ended it.

i know the reason of my recollection, because of that suspicious incident. i don't think i was reading too much into it huh....

sometimes i should slow down and see the complete world.



it's really been sometime since i pen down something here. within a months, i went through alot of changes that made my mind set back on track to think of where i really want to be at. it's always in me that i failed to see human's true self. i have been trying real hard to see through a person's mind but i never will succeed. because i believe i am not capable to do that, thus i lost confidence on my own judgement. i always only believe what i see rather than what i hear. but maybe before i could see it, i've already been hurt badly. so, what should i believe in now? see or hear? never knew being a human is so tough. defending oneself' to survive in this cruelty world yet not knowing your existence in this "supposed-to-be" beautiful world. pardon me for all this, i have been reading alot of self-improvement books by "Mitch Album" and "Paulo Coelho" . they are amazing writers which i have so many things to learn from them and to understand their message . now, i don't fancy romance stories that much anymore.



death is embracing us anytime, any moment. you can hardly change fate that has been installed for you. but what you can do , is to live a better live before death and you will realize that you went on to heaven in such a way that you will not have any regrets leaving in your heart. Maybe at this point, people from the other end of the world lives' are endanger, yet here we are, safe and sound. that's why shouldn't we live with much happiness and faith each and every day. it was always easier said than done. but if you think likewise, i think you will feel likewise totally. at this point of time, i might be having leisure time where i could surf net and enjoy the relaxing air-condition installed for us. however we never know that at the end of the world, people are suffering from many things, yet i can do nothing to help them.

i always thought parting was nothing difficult but i was surprised by my own emotions building up.
i always thought saying good-bye will never be a difficult to say.
i always thought seeing his/her back view walking away is easy.
but everything was totally the opposite when i sent my brother off to be a "real man".
i have to suppress my tears, and hide my worries deep inside. everyone of us is trying to put up a strong front. but seriously hope things will be fine for him.
tekong is a very refreshing small island that faces the sea. losing contact with the cruetly world, makes the air more refreshing!

recently i reminisce alot about the past. not sure the reason behind this, but i hate it when i keep on thinking stuffs relating to the past. many time i told myself, i am living for the future and i want to keep up with the future. when would i want to slow down my steps running backward?
things will be tougher for me and maybe in the end, i lose both sides.

Sometimes a new life marks the end of life.

It just seems to me that I am different from my friends. I think I changed a lot. Years back, my dream was just to meet the right guy and start a happy family. But gradually, I start to lose confidence in this part. There are just too many cases of divorces and betrayal. But of course there are still examples of happy family. Somehow, it doesn’t appeal to me anymore.

I am beginning to stop giving. Giving my love and concern to the dearest people around me. Instead I give all my attention of love and care to myself.

I am beginning to stop being nice, nice to the dearest people around me. Instead I am starting to be mean to people.

I am beginning to stop being easy-going. Instead, I demand what I want.

Given anyone, they bound to go through this changing period. Because you already seen the cruelty of the world. I still have plenty of the cruelty to see.

I am a selfish person that love myself too much.

It really amazing how people click and be friends. I am a libra and I believe in my characteristic. That’s why I came upon the question, why are all my friends so beautiful? Because I am a libra that loves nothing but pretty things. That explains why I only befriend beautiful and handsome people. I am so materialistic man. I just don’t share the same thinking as any of my family members not even my brother. The feeling is so funny like as if I am the weird person in the whole family. They all share the same values in life but not for me. Am I that different?

I really see the dramatic change since 18 years old and I always tell myself to never do things I will regret down the road or things that remind me of how embarrassing I was. But life never ends here and it will still go on until I find the right meaning in life. It will go on until I find a direction in life.

Life is like a car, is all about direction. If you don’t know where you want to go, the car will just halt there and don’t move, even if the car is moving, it is also wandering about without direction. But once, you have a direction in life, you will know your way to it. There may be a shorter route or if you do not fear hardship then you can take the longer route. When you reach the destination, you will be doing things that you are there for. Once, you are done, then you will have another destination in life and keep on moving towards it till you find a place you love and a place called home. No point wasting all the efforts and energy wandering about if you have no direction in life. Its time now to stop and ponder about what’s is your direction in life that will keep you moving non stop.

sometime a new beginning marks a new life.

3 minutes silence for the victims in China, Szechuan.

i teared everytime i see images of the victims and deaths that the earthquake caused. children are happily studying the moment the school collapsed. the place that they thought was the safest for them yet it caused them death. it was certainly heart-breaking to see parents crying their lungs out for their beloved children. i could never understand the feelings that was in them when they saw piles and piles of kids lying on the fall,in search for their loves. it was certainly devastating for them to endure and go through this whole incident.

A 7.8 earthquake that killed thousands and thousands of life. An earthquake that tear happy family apart. An earthquake that millions over the world detest it. An earthquake brought Chinese standing firm together helping each other to stand back on their feet again. An earthquake that breaks million's heart. An earthquake that kills so many many innocent life. An earthquake which might in the first place caused by human's harming the global warming. A life for a life.

this was certainly heartbreaking, sad and sympathy. so here i am, praying hard for the victims to stand back on their feet and live on their lives plus the lives of the death.

"friends are like reading material" a phrase that was taught to me. and for me, i lost a wise dictionary .

i had this weird dream, but i hope he is okay. that dream was too scary. just be safe, sound and happy.

sometime, hell STOP "sometimes"

she mentioned : " those were the memories that she doesn't want to touch".
someone like her have memories that she doesn't want to recall. i believe deep in everyone's heart, there lived some memories that you wouldn't want to look back at it.

i believed my heart lived too many memories that i don't even want to remember less mention keeping it. but it's funny how human brain stores memories. there are so many happy memories, but they chose to reject storing it, however they just stupidly accept bad memories like inviting virus into your data. stupid brain isn't it?

going through all the memories could be the last thing that i will wanna do. people should look forward and working hard to reach the goal in front. the trekking taught me a lot of things. the destination seems so far away, but if you stay focus and put in effort, the next thing you'll know is that you've already reach your destination. it's really serious when i mention this. do no fear how much hardwork or sweat you have to put in to finish the walk, just enjoy the process of it. you will pick up some small little interesting tips along the way. life should be like that. you will meet different things each time and starting to understand yourself. having understand yourself will allow you to have a better vision in what you want to achieve in your life. you can only be you in this lifetime, you will be someone else next life.

do young kids know what love really is? when i don't even think i could ever figure that out.

so much of seriousness, let me share some joke. actually, sometimes i hate it why cab uncles start to chit chat when i feel like having some peace, but you see, sometime you will still gain somethings. like this time.

uncle told me stories how some passenger couldn't pronounce their destination.

a passenger board a cab at redhill

passenger : uncle, i want to go rivervalley.

uncle: okay.

10 minutes later....

uncle: okay, rivervalley

passenger looks puzzled.

passenger: uncle, where is this? you should take CTE .

uncle : but, you said you want to go rivervalley.

so, passenger called this friend.

passenger : eh, your fault la, i told uncle to go CTE but i don't know when am i .

passenger's friend : where did you tell uncle you want to do?

passenger : rivervalley lor!

passenger's friend : SA LA la!! is RIVERVALE!!! IS YOUR FAULT!!!

Blurhahahahahahahahahahaha!!!

it is kinda of funny. sometime being a cab uncle sees and hears alot. i think they are the people that learnt alot of things. haha.

sometime i wish to admit the fact...

it seems that nowadays, it's been hard for me to write some stuffs here. i thought i should give it a try today.

in the past, whenever i've been to some places i will love to keep many many pictures as memories. but, in this past few trips, i didn't manage to do so. maybe that place is no longer new to me. that's the country that i have been there almost every year and still turn out to be my favorite country. everytime when i go away i will come back with a heavy heart. but it seldom happen already. i think i am starting to see a clearer picture of myself. starting to understand myself more. i know i won't want to do stupid things to hurt myself and deprive myself to be happy. everything is predestined like she said which i totally agree. you can't fight fate but you'll have to welcome fate with big arms. there are things we can control, but certainly there are things we can't control. we always think heaven is unfair, but in some point of view heaven is equally fair. it's really up to individual to judge on a particular event.

sometimes things can be that easy, however is just that we are not open up to many channels that narrowed our mind up. when the mind is shut to only one channels that's when a person fails to see opportunities in other channels. which might turn out to be a faster and better way in solving the problem or thinking things through. i am enlightened.

Do believe "what comes around goes around". just remembered clearly that today you hurt that him/her, remembered that. some time down, you will have a taste of what you did.

trekking is really a good form of workout and a process where you are surrounded by natural environment. everything around you will be so calm and quiet. it will be a good time to think through what bothers you alot or to just relax yourself. things are never tough if you've tried you best. enriching journey.


Victor 21st bash.

been sometime since i saw them. had fun!

sometimes i just wished 'godness'

godness, cause it has been really a long long time since i post any entries here. it has been a long long time since i have the mood to write long-winded stories. but today, i thought i should come by and just say hello to people. but is there anyone? ha.

its been a year, yet i still hasn't settled down. its been half a year since everything went back to the same. i saw alot down the miserable life. yet, i still didn't learn any lesson. i really thought things will be just better and better for me. but just once you think you are on the top of the world, the next moment u are upside down. it's really like riding a roller coaster ride. no one will love being hanging up there for so long, though u will feel safer when u are down, but u feel no excitement.
i just finished a book "the five people you will meet in heaven"
then i thought bout mine. who will be the 5 people i will meet up there? i wonder. they might be people that just brushed through me along the roads, but then i might make an impact in their life? do people i dearly love the most? or some well-known fashion designers. okay, this book doesn't teach people to imagine who they will meet. but every person teach every little different things. which i think all very just very close to us and happened everyday just that we don't take notice of them. so, i guess cherish the family,people,friends and everything u have.

people are just so funny. when they don't need you they will be out of your life. when they need some concern, they will come looking for you and pretend to be so concern about you, give you one hell of unnecessary talks that they think they know you so well. the time when people lose contact, so much can change. a person is able to change instantly. like me, everyone notice my change. everyone said i changed. well, i agree to it. i changed. no longer like before. where nothing seems to worry me, where i think friends are just my everything, where i think fun is what have to be around . now, this are no longer the same. everything is just vice versa. i just seems to be anxious and worry for everything little thing. i think 1 best friend is really enough, but acquaintances must have many. now i think a goal in life is the pushing perk to keep me moving on.

anyway, i was thinking since i like to read magazines and love fashion so much, i think i should do a fashion blog . maybe i can start thinking about it. will post the webbie once i have the time to do it. -- under construction --

sometimes i wish to just be able to excel on the job i love.

oright, in one shot,

Happy New Year,

Happy Chinese Lunar New Year,

Happy Valentine!

Is New Year being created to mark the end of the year or the start of the new year?

Is Valentine day being created to let lonely people feels miserable?

why the hell are festival and special days being created?

seriously speaking, why is Valentine Day being created to just show the world how lovely and how loving couple are? i sometimes don see a point, is it because of i'm single. but thinking through, i doubt so. i think if a couple really loves each other, everyday will be a valentine day for them. why must there be a valentine day to feel being loved? why can't everyday be a valentine day? i just don't see the point of this special day created for anything. ha! -point of view-

chinese new year. this year i go stylish, this year i go modernish, this year i go boyish, this year i am another year. this year i mingle well with the kids. they are all so cute cute cute. so lovely. always love the first day of lunar year. cos that's when the catching up time. i had relatives asking me when i am getting married? gosh! how old do i really look? maybe another 20 years time. ha! but the kids were really really cute. esp this handsome small lad, gona upload the pictures once i received it. he is so lovable and adorable.

i guess is really time to let go of any feelings and feel numb again. happy with life now except for one thing, i really really really wanna do things i like and i think i can excel and i think no matter how much time i put on the thing i wanna do i will still enjoy my life.

goodness, alot of people say that i changed,but i don't see that in me. how did i change? bestie say i change in my style, but i guess more or less my character change somehow. surroundings and situation forced me to change. people and irritating business show me the needs to change. advise and confusion allow me to fall in the trap. ya, somehow i think i did. i am not going to go with my passion, however choosing the secondary to it. people money really means alot. have i become so money minded. i didn't however i see the power of money. this season i am in love with : "Valentino Maison Bag" love it so much but i could never afford it. my passion is so pricey that i have to let it go. people have been stepping hard on my dreams forcing me to let it free. from all this incident , i realize people can't have much control in things they love. cos not everything will fall nicely the way you want. i am too tired to see the reality and hear the truth. i seriously think i am so much suitable to be a nursery childcare teacher. cos, all the kids are so naive . they know nothing about lying, bout betraying, they just know nuts about how to be a bad person. that's why kids are so adorable. things have changed so much in my life. but i don't see it getting better. alright, enough of those unhappy stuffs. i have got plenty of pictures to show in a go. however, i still got so many things to see too. but let's just put it aside...

sometime i just wish that i don't wish

recently, i feel the fear. the fear of not attaining anything in my whole life. i fear that things won't turn out as what i expected. i fear that i will be in heavy debt just in order to pursue my DREAMS. i seriously fear for my passion and dream. how come i can't just be a simple minded and easy contented lady. why i just can't be happy with what i have now. why can't i just be satisfied with my current life which is consider normal. why must i be so stubborn on my dreams. the fear was kept under me, i didn't wanna face it didn't wanna admit it. i am scared, i am afraid, i fear.


Now,let's relax and allow me to discourse my End-of-year 2007 Hongkong trip.
this time round, i didn't go with bestie,this time round it wasn't a short trip, this time round it was a cold trip, this time round i learnt alot from this trip, this time round this trip is considered fruitful, this time round i am more familiarize with hongkong.this time round i spoke proper and more accurate cantonese, this time round cabs uncle praise my ability to speak cantonese. this time round i am able to wear boots in hongkong, this time round i am wearing full leggings in hongkong,this time round i love the weather in hongkong. this time round we went to the outback of hongkong. this time round i made wished in hongkong. this time round i spent Christmas eve in Lan Kwai Fong, this time round i spent Christmas Day in Macau, this time round we went around hongkong, this time round i had "Ji Dan Zai" everyday,this time round i bought nicer things, this time round i travelled to shenzhen, this time round shenzhen is scary at night, this time round i felt that i am lucky to be born in singapore, stupid, i should just stop all this time round. tired of it.

people are always not content of their presents' , they have to be at the worst to feel fortunate, to be at the best to feel misfortunate. when i was in shenzhen, i saw how poor people can get, how low and poor the living standards it was, at once i felt so so fortunate to be blessed with nice home, nice family and friends and nice clothes and nice and clean environment. but the moment i am back in singapore, i guess i start to take everything for granted. human's like me are always not gratified with everything that i have. i should be banished from all the good stuffs that i am enjoying. but this trip i went to the wishing tree that was always the scene in Hongkong TVB Dramas. though, the tree isn't like before with all the blessing tied up on the tree cos the branch did break. for safety reasons, no more throwings are allowed. we can just wished and be blessed. i am happy that we went to the more urban area to see another peaceful side of hongkong. when we were there everything was first class, train we also took first class, the ferry to macau we also took the deluxe class, then when we fly back to singapore we were upgrade to business class!! just because we dress appropriate for business class, in hongkong we stayed at a boutique hotel! damn NICE!!! very DESIGNER!! Superb CONCEPT!!the whole trip is nothing but comfort! except for all the customs pass-through, that was torturing!very torturing.
hmm, how bout i'll stop till now.

hongkong is fun!
Last song of 2007

最長的電影
我們的開始　是很長的電影
放映了三年　我票都還留著
冰上的芭蕾　腦海中還在旋轉
望著妳　慢慢忘記妳

＃朦朧的時間　我們溜了多遠　
冰刀劃的圈　圈起了誰改變　
如果再重來　會不會稍嫌狼狽　
愛是不是不開口才珍貴
＊再給我兩分鐘　讓我把記憶結成冰　別融化了眼淚　妳妝都花了
要我怎麼記得　記得妳要我忘了吧 記得妳叫我忘了吧　
妳說妳會哭　不是因為在乎＊

如果
不瞞你說　我真的有想過
從今以後不再跟你　有任何聯絡
不要再試著暗示我　後來你發現甚麼

不瞞你說　並不特別寂寞
接下來的幾個週末　節目特別多
偶而會有人喜歡我　但並不代表甚麼

＊現在的我　不缺甚麼　
認真的生活　偶而會難過　
新朋友很多　他們不夠瞭解我（他們都不瞭解我）　
問了太多　我只是微笑的帶過　
未來的我　沒有如果　
不相信星座　能預告甚麼　
假設那麼多　過去會不會復活　
最好沒有如果

不瞞你說　經過幾次風波
你不能再從我臉上　讀出些甚麼
要適應的事越來越多　改變的不止是我

Repeat ＊假設那麼多　過去能不能來過我不相信如果

sometimes i wish time won't pass away so fast

Woah! Happy New Year everybody!! Happy 2008!! what a striking fast year that went away just like that! did a new top picture to welcome a brand new 2008.so many things happen to me in this whole year. so many changes made, so many unexpected. but no matter how, i still have to deal with all this that come chasing behind me. bravo! what a fucking bad year.

new year resolution? hmm, my new year resolution always never come true, but i guess i found the reason for that. cos, i have been waiting for my resolution to come true while i did nothing to change. if i wanna my resolution to come true i should so something to myself. i should change myself and i should be the one MAKING my resolution come true and not doing nothing.

frankly,just came back from the familiar hongkong. how many times must i go there? ha! it was my 4th time. amazing how i can go back to the same country for four times. what is it that they have it there that keeps attracting me back. maybe is not the place, maybe is just a getaway. a getaway to de-stress and find a new goal. but still hongkong, i love hongkong. the weather there was good! was cooling and cold. i like the weather there. there so much for me to say but i guess i shall hold on to it and have a happy new year.

have a good holiday everybody!

somtimes i wish my life will be like lauren conrad, okay maybe not all, how bout half?

ha! this is the second time that i said i wanted like like hers', can you see how much i wish for what she has. but definitely, it is not going to happen, unless maybe i make it happen.and just that, you is lauren conrad when she was born but i will be lauren conrad maybe in another ten plus years time. ha! olright, i am joking. but i guess we just have to work hard in our life and expect the less. cos expectations make me out of breathe, reaching out for something that never meant to be is so difficult. maybe we could just lighten our burden in life by lending a helping hand to yourself. you need that than anyone else does. so why not! it is definitely good to have a goal in your life and to know that you are working towards it. but i have a goal in my life and i only dream about it. life's still as tough. life is just so not meant to be. finally, the hills season 3 finale and i am so excited. i wanted to know so badly whether Lauren is together with Brody. out of so many guys in her life, Stephen, jason, i guess Brody is the most charming gentlemen, never mind his flirtatious's character. he is very hot!! and the chemistry between the 2 of them is burning hot! ha! and the hills season 4 is coming up soon! is all about lauren and whitney in Paris!! how could anyone missed it! PARIS!! amazing!! but then, the preview had it that " brody has a girlfriend?" "how can that be ?" - flashed across my mind instantly! that definitely cant be true. haha. alright, stop making mild guess. have to catch the hills season 4 to know everything!!

orite. i have so many many pictures to share and gossips as well. but i guess gossips should just be kept within me and friends. my lovely princess is here last last week! and she is really really beautiful and sweet and cute and funny. love her so much. orite, stop my compliments, have a look and you will know.









i guess i will leave out the comments. to many to comment about. i have been so busy recently, actually with nothing! cos, i am not too sure what i am busy with. maybe acting busy, maybe trying to be busy. maybe trying to ignore the people in my world. maybe trying to be alone. maybe trying to be happy. oh ya! i just bought , i just bought, i just bought the most expensive bag in my life till now. for me, ya is expensive but guess pretty affordable. i love it but still have yet to carry it. it looks very elegant, very nice,good color blend, nice prints, nice unique bag shape. just simply amazing pretty beautiful bag! see me out with it! ha!

hey guys, have you all ever come across this word call platonic this term" Wow! i learnt it from my friend the other day while i was trying to figure our the relationship between my customers. ha! but interesting to know there a word that really exist to describe this kind of relations, which i think was totally bullshit and nonsense. that funny how this term comes about.

i went to Show's concert last last saturday and it was amazing "high" for the premier seats audience. but was amazingly cold for the audiences seating surrounding the indoor stadium. i am very high and wanna like high along but too afraid to stand up alone and might be blocking people's view and it wouldnt be nice. but i could see that i was very worth watching to even get the most expensive tickets. cos he looks very attractive when he was dancing, singing love songs and while playing piano. plus he is very humorous. there were laughters throughout the whole concert with his Mr Pig : "good good good good" and his fabulous english! he is the man!! haha! happy for the week.

if there will be a country that has 4 seasons, and citizens need not work to live all provided by government. you guys better don snatch it with me, cos i will definitely be the first very first to queue. cos, work now makes me want to puke, want to scream out loud, want to just bang! and leave, want to just fuck off! seriously, nothing is good. will 2008 be nice? promise?

orite, enough of me writing nonsense. let's move on.

sometime i wish i won't repeat the same thing twice. OMG!! it is seriously coming to another year end. damn! time passed fucking fast this year round. and i hate this year. my every year's resolution is to have a better year than previous, but i guess my wish always turn on the other side. it will just get worse and worse each year instead of getting better. i never imagine i had to pass through such a difficult time this year round. nothing is going my way. mistakes made during work is seriously getting on my nerves. i hate to face the politic office issues, i hate to face the fact that i failed so badly in judging people. i hate to face the fact that i always thought that everybody is nice and good. i hate the fact that i stand so strong on my own judgment but ended up wrong. seriously, what's wrong with me? i have a problem with people. in this world there are things that can make me happy. but i only tend to remember things that made me sad. in this world there are so many people that can put a smile on your face but i only hate the people that make me tear. in this world there are so many people that can make you laugh but i only cry for those who make me sad. in this world there are so many different people out there searching for their soulmate but keep on making going to the wrong one. hell to the world. hell to me! ha! i realise something, no-one can't live without anyone. in this world there's alot of things you have to depend on yourself, and don't ever say things like:" i can't live without you" which i seriously think is bullshit! you were born to live for yourself. you were born to step your foot in this world. you were born for who you are. so never say you can't live on without anyone. everyone should learn their means and way of living. everyone should have their stlye of surviving. and i love hanging out with bestie. recently being to the barracks over at demspey which was a very cool chillout place. always have never-ending chatting session with her. i really don't know what will happen down the road. so far, there i could not see any sign. but life is moving on, moving forward. everybody has their own stuffs. and seriously i think i should better get alive and not wasting my youth meeting uncles everyday. ha! orite, back on track with the hills. and brody should really get together with lauren. and god! lauren got to meet Marc Jacobs... how cool is that... and bloody shit, she is acting so calm when she saw him which he was one of her favourites! haha...that's funny!! okie, i am going to continues seeing uncles everyday. let me know who's life is sadder than mine?

my new hair months ago;

sometimes i wish i am not so stubborn.


it has been time since i blog. cause i did mention that i will only blog if i have something happy to share about. or maybe when i see some happy things in my life. right now, i did spend 2 happy days recently. which was on the eve and actual day of my birthday. i had a good girls night out dinning and chilling with my bestie and several girlfriends. Thank you! my birthday wont be any better without them. especially with my bestie.. seriously, she is a must in my birthday celebration. and her sister is so adorable and nice!! she made, MADE a pillow herself for me. so i have a handmade pillow for my birthday present. she is so cool!! and bestie did give me a good birthday and birthday present. really a big thanks to him. and the girls. without them the day out wont be good! thank you girls.

and on the actual day itself, i went out with my sec sch friends. seriously, i was disappointed that it was last minute but then i understand them....i sincerely thank them for the effort. seriously, could feel their effort. the cake and the present. they all tried to make it to come out. thank you. and joel!! he is also a must.. he damn hilarious!! superb!! always made me laugh to the max. and we watch this movie "the brave one" from the movie i understand that people changed due to circumstances! unknowingly, they changed due to surroundings and happenings.
the show was quite a dry one but i guess i understand alot from it.
and sorry, i couldn't act normally. it has been just difficult. but thanks everybody. you guys just turned my birthday into a great and successful one.

my brother and parents gave me very very good birthday present! thank you. my brother's card made me burst out in tears.

lastly, thanks everyone who remembered and wish me on my birthday. that was my 21st!! however, i seriously don have the birthday feeling.... alright, i am gona share some pictures. here we go.....


Day : 12.10.2007, Friday
Venue : Oosh
Time : 10:30pm

bestie and me;loveherjie and me;

mary and me;

nana and me;

jie,mary and me;

Day: 13.10.2007, Saturday
Venue : Vivocity rooftop stage
Time: 11:00pm

my 2nd birthday cake;raspberry&blueberry ice cream cake!

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3,2,1 NOW!! ;

hair-eater;snapshot;reporting sir;thank you & sorry;thank you cause i know he won't forget;thank you cause he always has his ways to make me laugh; little boy.thank you for being the bestest friend.thank you for "giving me the psp"thank you for eating alot!;ha
lastly, this was my wish. and i seriously hope it comes true. i don't care about other birthday's wish but i thought, 21st birthday wishes should come true!! and i made the same 3 wishes twice! so it better come true. sincerely wish!