i just lost what i wanted to write 5 seconds ago. 

Let's talk about more social and political stuffs. Global Market is not doing well and is affecting worldwide economic. what worse, it is affecting everyone. " If everyone goes into a power safe mode, recession will be worse" [quoted from Channelnewsasia] true enough, if everyone saves and nobody spend, the economic will not generate revenues and sales. Then wouldn't it be worse for the economic. it is good to save but do not totally just stop spending and i for-see, this Christmas will be the worse christmas that i am going to enjoy. I wrote before in my post, Christmas is a season that i love the most! the happiness and joyous atmosphere is so heartwarming and always touching my heart. I hate to see a gloomy and sad Christmas furthermore, i am not traveling that period. I thought i make a pact with myself to always spend christmas and new year away. but economic is doing so bad that i am not able to find any good soul. 

Traveling, is tough to find a good traveling partner that shares the same thoughts, tell u nothing but the truth and bring fun and happiness. i love traveling, 1 year ago i could say loudly that i can travel alone but ever since i think traveling should have a companion that you could share all the funny incidents that happen on the spot. 

a incident that was uncalled for, pisses me off............ telling to explain but you lost you.... but i believe people change to adapt to the environment, thats why i love changing!

Christmas is really nearing, i hope to have a merry merry joyous christmas.....

Please....Please....

It has been some time since I pen down my thoughts and emotions.

Since my last entry, time just flies so quickly that even a camera can’t capture all my memories. The decision that make me write is partly because of my dear friend , ah wei who said she enjoy reading my entries. So, for her, I decided maybe it’s time to start writing again.
She mentioned that it might be things happened. But, frankly speaking, nothing happened, even if it happened, it was past tense. It was my pure emotions and thoughts. I thought I was a well known pessimistic? HA!

There are always ups and down in life. Although, I have yet to be at my ups, I am always been found at the bottom of my life. October supposed to be a happy month for me, but why must my misfortune shot me right at this month. Is it that I do not deserve to be happy? I tried so hard to look at the bright side; perhaps the bright side was too glaring for me.

Suddenly, I am lost again. I thought I found my direction, I thought I had it all straightened out. I thought, bloody fuck off the thoughts. Maybe I think too highly of myself? Maybe I think I am able to be there? Maybe, bloody fuck off the maybes. Sat my ass straight and get my thoughts out.

People are always lost in their life, just like drivers lost their way. They have the Map or GPS to guide them, so for human, we have to find our “Map” or “GPS” in order to be right on track. But sometimes, they might lead you to the wrong way, they can’t always be right. Maybe you should depend a little on your intuition? Nothing will drop from heaven.

Having being another year older, I have come to terms with a lot of things. Human just have to be open-minded to lead a more carefree life. Sometime, although we know that accepting and facing the reality is tough, just have to overcome the barrier and you will come to realize that actually you can make everything right. Not many people will have a wise dictionary that comes across in their life. If you do, please cherish it and learn as much things. Wise dictionary will never be there forever. There will always be moments of departure.

Surprisingly, being a year older, I didn’t make any wish. Will they come true? If they do, just give me a place with nobody, by the beach, stock up the cupboard with inspiration books and nice soothing music. Once in awhile, some hot hunk. Whahahaha…. I think, I just need a break, a getaway to somewhere to breathe some new air and everything should be fine. 

I realize people really tend not to treasure what’s in front of them, and start crying when everything is gone. Wake up people, take more notice of the surrounding, you might be surrounded by love. And i know i am surrounded by my loved fren. 

Oh god, why is my post so heartwarming today. *wide smile*

Okay, stop here.
P.S * New found buddy, please remember that I am pretty and cute but we could never figure out the reason why? *wink