sometime i wish to admit the fact...

it seems that nowadays, it's been hard for me to write some stuffs here. i thought i should give it a try today.

in the past, whenever i've been to some places i will love to keep many many pictures as memories. but, in this past few trips, i didn't manage to do so. maybe that place is no longer new to me. that's the country that i have been there almost every year and still turn out to be my favorite country. everytime when i go away i will come back with a heavy heart. but it seldom happen already. i think i am starting to see a clearer picture of myself. starting to understand myself more. i know i won't want to do stupid things to hurt myself and deprive myself to be happy. everything is predestined like she said which i totally agree. you can't fight fate but you'll have to welcome fate with big arms. there are things we can control, but certainly there are things we can't control. we always think heaven is unfair, but in some point of view heaven is equally fair. it's really up to individual to judge on a particular event.

sometimes things can be that easy, however is just that we are not open up to many channels that narrowed our mind up. when the mind is shut to only one channels that's when a person fails to see opportunities in other channels. which might turn out to be a faster and better way in solving the problem or thinking things through. i am enlightened.

Do believe "what comes around goes around". just remembered clearly that today you hurt that him/her, remembered that. some time down, you will have a taste of what you did.

trekking is really a good form of workout and a process where you are surrounded by natural environment. everything around you will be so calm and quiet. it will be a good time to think through what bothers you alot or to just relax yourself. things are never tough if you've tried you best. enriching journey.


Victor 21st bash.

been sometime since i saw them. had fun!

sometimes i just wished 'godness'

godness, cause it has been really a long long time since i post any entries here. it has been a long long time since i have the mood to write long-winded stories. but today, i thought i should come by and just say hello to people. but is there anyone? ha.

its been a year, yet i still hasn't settled down. its been half a year since everything went back to the same. i saw alot down the miserable life. yet, i still didn't learn any lesson. i really thought things will be just better and better for me. but just once you think you are on the top of the world, the next moment u are upside down. it's really like riding a roller coaster ride. no one will love being hanging up there for so long, though u will feel safer when u are down, but u feel no excitement.
i just finished a book "the five people you will meet in heaven"
then i thought bout mine. who will be the 5 people i will meet up there? i wonder. they might be people that just brushed through me along the roads, but then i might make an impact in their life? do people i dearly love the most? or some well-known fashion designers. okay, this book doesn't teach people to imagine who they will meet. but every person teach every little different things. which i think all very just very close to us and happened everyday just that we don't take notice of them. so, i guess cherish the family,people,friends and everything u have.

people are just so funny. when they don't need you they will be out of your life. when they need some concern, they will come looking for you and pretend to be so concern about you, give you one hell of unnecessary talks that they think they know you so well. the time when people lose contact, so much can change. a person is able to change instantly. like me, everyone notice my change. everyone said i changed. well, i agree to it. i changed. no longer like before. where nothing seems to worry me, where i think friends are just my everything, where i think fun is what have to be around . now, this are no longer the same. everything is just vice versa. i just seems to be anxious and worry for everything little thing. i think 1 best friend is really enough, but acquaintances must have many. now i think a goal in life is the pushing perk to keep me moving on.

anyway, i was thinking since i like to read magazines and love fashion so much, i think i should do a fashion blog . maybe i can start thinking about it. will post the webbie once i have the time to do it. -- under construction --